Remnants

admittedly it was a struggle to write this
I figured that any way I would try to shape these words I feel
they would be expressions you have already known
be they blissful or wistful
you would recognize my tone
still, even though we’ve  been apart for a while
each time in the quiet of my own, when I think of you
there can only be a smile
I just loved how on every level we connected
you have me fascinated with your intellect
the way you candidly express yourself
your open-mindedness
not to mention your body
I can’t describe how it feels when you’re next to me
it pains me to be not exactly sure what went wrong
just know that my heart is where you are
…and my love for you remains

I’ve begun this letter a few times 

even considered not answering 

are men really so dumb or is it just you 

how could you not know how you hurt me that night 

a silly quarrel over nothing, maybe 

but you were so offhand 

it hurt me so 

O I didn’t know you that night 

and when we said goodbye the door slammed too hard 

for there to be any mistake 

and now you say you’re not sure what went wrong 

but you miss me and love me 

so cavalier 

do you know how you left me 

when you closed that door
the shards of my heart fallen crisply at my feet 

so your heart is where I am 

funny I don’t see a thing 

are you certain that your love remains 

or is your love merely remains?

certainly you remember that if you were to ask
I would have done anything
that if ever you whispered my name into a soft wind
I would drop everything
…and to you I would come running
providing your comfort, protecting your emotions
giving you all that resides within me
such as a man should do
that night was a mistake inside my head
now I have come to realize that..
each moment living without you, I dread
missing when it was that we would stare into each others' eyes
seemingly without end
it is my hope that you would want to share this with me again
I believe that our love deserves a second chance
instead of becoming just a remnant of our pasts
come to me, that our love may advance, loving each other infinitely

O I love you I love you I love you so
desolate, dry, in disrepair is my life’s landscape with you not there
I know how you feel, I know you speak true
I was playing games
I simply didn’t want to make it too easy for you
I wanted you to be wounded as badly as I
but now that I see that you were it only hurts more
O I love you I love you I love you so
I don’t want this to be a second chance
our love’s bond was never broken
let this be known, simply, as our love
then, now and always
no second chances
just we two
together still
together always
as we must be



Rory & Leeza


©rj2011
Leeza 02/23/11