Invocation
having decided to turn the pagethat something may be done about the internal battle
…being fought within
the spiritual warfare that my psyche relentlessly wages
I began to care again
…and it was right about then, she caught my eyes
flowers were sent
so too her favorite perfume
daily greetings met with enthusiasm, smiles, laughter
somehow I believed we had both become attuned
to what the other wanted and needed
taking delight in visions of what I hoped would become
the happily ever after
I couldn’t have been more wrong because before long
she became another nay sayer, making excuses
once again anger began to perfuse my body
slammed my fist on the table, looked to the heavens
…and made it known that I was done with that prayer
what ever happened to getting excited
how does one not allow love walk through the door
after inviting it in
poor judgment on my part I guess, this I must accept
seems that page wasn’t turned at all
…because I’m still confronted with the same mess
people hearing but not listening to what you say
people hell-bent on accumulating accolades
people unwilling to meet you halfway
tired, so very tired I’ve gotten of people playing me close
testing my mettle to the point to where I could just explode
their one-upmanship
like their capitalistic callousness deems them exempt
the thought of human connectedness, I dare not attempt
I look to heavens realizing I’m done with that prayer
Cessation
Rory
©rj2011
thank you rory for the tag i read the emotions and the frustration in your words.in my experience with prayer is that if what i pray for may not be what god wants for me.prayer is trusting that even if i am alone at lease i'm not stuck with someone of my choice making my life hell.been there now waiting upon the lord!
ReplyDeleteSometimes it's never what it seems until it's seen and by then we're already caught in the tidal wave swept along for the duration, washed up on the shore and left to wonder why and is God playing a cruel joke or ignoring my prayers altogether. Powerful soul moving poem RJ
ReplyDeleteThis is a wonderful piece, perfect description of the way life goes oftentimes. It's not to wonder, "Why God" why must I feel this pain. Why must I go through the judgement of others. Kudos my friend on a fabulous write.
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I also feel that to manifest we have to keep a positive attitude and positive thinking. The universe doesn't understand negative or positive it just mimics more of the same. Not easy sometimes but worth it. Thank you Rory for the tag. Enjoy the rest of your week my friend.
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